Always a man’s other things but never a man’s man

I met this guy. It not our first encounter. It is actually our, third or forth time meeting. I don’t know much about him. He work, he pays his bills got a dog, down somewhere or it might be downtown so he says is where he worked and each time I walked in the downtown area I always end up seeing him so he might be telling the truth. He is tall, maybe about 6’1 or 6'2 feet in heights and weight about 150 pounds or so, he’s not heavy. Not one bit. He looks fairly good for his age which can be around the age of 26 to 30. And he is single in a shared apt. When we met the first time, I was not ready to have sex, so we jerk out. The second time we met, we had protected sex. It was good. He was the biggest a dude can ever get until I met this other dude that was bigger and thicker than him. The third time we met he had sex again. That was about 3 to 6 month later when I was in school. I discover he was a bit freaky when he wanted to record our session. Told him no and i was not interested , I know where those ends up. On the internet. We recently met. He was ready to have sex when I told him I was not looking for that and was looking to hang out with him. I had to leave. He wants sex, nothing but sex. He like it being single and to be able to fuck when ever and whom ever he pleases and he gave me the advice to also be single. He and so has many others confirm my thesis on black men homosexuality voyage.
They are but men who do not want to take on the responsibility of another because they cannot take the responsibility for themselves. I can base this thesis on my many encounters and those I have talked to in the past and present time. They don’t want to be in a relationship because all they are afraid of being enslave into the “mundane” world which is to, wake-up early, go to a job you don’t like, have kids, take of them, or wife or man, do house chores come back and be bored out of their mind and to be unhappy. Those are not the responsibility homosexual black men want to have. That is not the life style of being homosexual. It’s a party every day, you get to spend money the way you want to, don’t have to work, go online, exhibit your body for I can see. Pretend to be someone that your not and carry on with your life and Even truly at old age get someone for a few year and die with a kid somewhere of their time when they use to be with a woman. So in saying he wins without going through a life of miserable head-ach or painstaking shits.
I am guilty of charges because to be honest I cannot see myself going through the same ordeal my father is going through. I surely do want kids but I don’t think I am ready for the drama and bull-shit. Day by day, year by years it is same men who you see online, pretending to he angelic and about something when really all they want is to fuck and move on. You can’t be mad at men for wanting to fuck because that is all some men are good at. Is to fuck and give a good loving. You can teach time how to be a good men but not unless are they interested to learn will they be a good men or partners.
A relationship can only exist between a man and a woman when the two are strange and it is a game in figuring how to do’s with each other and with the patient of a woman. Some men are not as patient as women. A woman can never figure how to make a man happy other than giving him pussy every min of the min. a man can never make a woman happy if it’s not about hiving her dick. So why do we keep fooling ourselves when it come to relationships? Two people having sex they are at their happiest moment of their evening of day or year. Then after sex everything goes wrong, the way he does a certain things, the way she looks at him, the way he thinks, the ways she is too sensitive to her feeling. And for gay man it’s even more complicated because they are both gay. Sex is good then one men might not want to talk, while the other do want to talk, the other might be overly protected while the other laid back and like to have fun. Then they lose interest.
It is said when a woman look for a mate they look for someone that is strong, manly, capable of surviving and protecting of offspring. For woman it is about maturing and protecting of their young’s. When man look for a mate they look for someone who is fem, able to do their womanly duties and carry many offspring for generation to generation and not just any offspring Bois. It’s been like this since the dawn of time. From observation when gay man look for someone to have sex with they look for someone who can last longer in bed because God knows they can go on and on and on. If they have a big dick they look for someone who can take their big dick and go on and on and on. If they are as genuine as they pretending to be they looking for someone regular, if they are genuine and is looking because they do want to try something new and beautiful they look for someone like then with like mind. And with that come many categories of sexy bodies, celeb look alike, big dicks, bubble asses, if you are 6’0 and 150 and shape or most rarely if you are very feminine. All of those play a part in the deciding factor. So it is not as universal or stable. Because it can change from mood to mood at the end of the day we end up single anyway so it does not really matter. We keep fooling our gay self thinking it possible when it is impossible. More than likely I believe lesbian relationship have greater chances of surviving than gay male relationship. I see lesbian, thought they are afraid, they are in it together, they are showing public affection in a manner that is cute and sexy and it last long get for straight men it is a turn on to see 2 woman together making out. As for men it the opposite, some men together or not in it together, they don’t show public affection much. When two men are together heads or turn, it is not a turn on for women or men alike. If it could happen they would be put to death. That can explain a lot but still there is something about it that gay like, they love being alone, they love to show off, they don’t mind being a fun thing but never a man’s man.