breatha

When I was a child I had many fears. I was afraid of the dark, still am, was afraid of being in my own skin, I was afraid of going to school and I was afraid of the future because I was living in one of the world poorest third world country. As I grew older my fears became a bit more realistic and more determining on how I approach and look at my future. I used to be afraid of ending up alone at an old age with no significant other. Being in gay lifestyle I somewhat accept the fact I might end up alone with no one to love and to be loved. It saddens me. And now more than ever I am afraid of not being able to survive to see the future and not be successful.

I want things; I want a luxury lifestyle that is dependable, stable and on-going flow of wealth. I want to be able to go to the movies and not worry about cash, be able to blindly help my friend(s) afford a stable roof under my head, be able to me a role or a mentor on how I did it and what you can do to it. My thing is, I know its coming but I am just being impatient and want it all now.