Gay Relationships

How can I except a guy to be my lover, to be my soul mate when if I see him I don’t want I am looking for. I am starting to doubt myself. I remember once I highlighted the characteristic of that person, someone who is intelligent, intelligent as in book smart, and street smart. But not to intelligent that he feels as if he knows everything and his mind is close. His mind got to be almost like a sponge, open and ready to absorb. Someone that is very verbose, I don’t like quietness, but at the same time I do not like someone that talks, talks and talks no stupid shit, it has to be about something that connect us. His words has to be considerate, warming, loving, it alone would attract me to him. Someone who enjoys the simple thing in life, who does not mind spending a lot of money while at the same time is very careful financially a while, like the arts and its wonders and beauty. Someone who has a great sense of humor, we would make each other laugh all the times, someone who is sensitive, who is in touch with their emotions, I don’t like wieners, or complainers, or sore losers. When we would argue, the end results with great sex in the bed room where we are looking at each other souls, saying and praying to God we have found each other. There are more, like honesty, faithfulness, respectful and responsibility all plays a factor in designing that perfect somebody. But am I the right one for them?

You have to know what you want and what makes you happy, what gives you that tingly feeling inside as if , that person can say something wrong yet it would appear so vividly angelic in your ears. You have to know what tick you the right way and vise versa. Then a gay relationship is more than a fairy tails, the reality what do you bring to the table? Why should I settle for you? Funny as it may seem that is the bottom line question. Are you working? Does u have a job? How much do you make? Do you have benefits? Do you own or rent? What sort of partnership will we have? If you can answer all of these question hecks go for it. But if you have uncertainties then don’t. Living with another man is not like living with a woman. There can be so many different options to choose from. It can also be complicated, something real complex. How do you explain to a man that, alright I am the top 100% I will not be getting fuck, you’re the bottom getting fuck is you until death do us apart this fake settlement or another man, it usually is. You got to be ready psychologically for that shit and by God it is hard.

That is my main concern what I have just stated getting dick every night, getting my not suppose to be elastic anal stretch and to be with a selfish dude who would not want to change role during sex. That bothers me very much. Because the top is doing all the penetrating, he will always be hard, or get hard, as for the bottom, it is not as pleasant, after a while it grow on you, you losses sensitivity and before you know it if that was “the” spot it is gone. It has been over use. Most if not all top are selfish and that is why they are on these site doing what they know best.