Older generation gay part 1

When I talk to my only friend who is 45 years of age and in a 19 going on 20 years homosexual relationship I wonder if I’ll ever be like him. where I am settle with the one that I love, in the house that we build together, our dogs our little garden, our back yard full of it furniture and with kids, not our own kids but kids we sort of adopted that lives with us that we help nurture. I wonder if I am destine for all of that. Though I keep digging my grave deeper and deeper by going about it the wrong way I do hope I find it somewhere someone.

While also talking to my 45 years of age friend I also, along with many other observation of the age group of 40 and up, notice that they think differently. The game is still a game for them even at this age and will not stop. They claim that it is other who does not know what they want or is playing games when it is actually them who do not grasp the reality of what they are doing. They are master of the game and played it well enough to know the rules and sometimes change it. In fact they are the one who created the rule by which us younger generation follows and go by. So in saying older gay men are not role model for younger gay male because like anything else that they do is play with your head, fuck and move on to the next.

But not all some, it is not to say that all the men in the age group of 40 and up are that way, some and if not the majority. It is remarkable that they are the one who would want to settle with a younger male rather than someone their own age. They were busy hooking up left and right, not caring but not things comes to a close where the lonely night they have made has suddenly turn dark and cold. But by then it might be a little bit too late, because true love only come once and if it do find its way back to you, we often too busy to even possibly notice his existence.

a character in Black Manga! he is a fierce fighter lol