beyond the shadow of doubt

I don’t want to be those type of dudes, who flirts with another dude, knowingly damn well he has a girl, who he have been with for a very long time, but today while I was on the train heading back home from the gym I could not help it. He was a good looking brother; the type of man whose arms I want around me and to hold me like there is no tomorrow, just like he was doing to his girl. It was easy for me to replace her and put me in the image. I guess it is the hope of him wanting you if you did flirt, and fuck him. But nothing is really guaranteed even if it were to happen. Our eye crosses path not just once, or twice but several time.

I could help wondering what was he thinking as he saw me standing next to him. Was he thinking how fine I was, or did he see me as a threat, as someone who is trying to take his girl away from him. God knows I was not interesting in her, only him whose attention mattered to me. I could have made it so, only for him, to be whit his girl at night and chilled with me in the mornings. My mind was wild with questions like; what if it was possible for him to be with me but still be with his girl. I honestly would not mind being second to her. Please don’t judge me as if I have no self worth. I have a lot of hope for things that might be remotely impossible. But what if it could have happen? It would have been something to hope and dream for. Maybe, just maybe.